My Forbidden Awakening

When I was young, my brother, my (male) cousin and I were very close. We grew up in the same neighborhood, spent a lot of time in each others houses while our parents worked or were away, we even had many of the same friends. I was the youngest and my cousin was the oldest, but there was less than a 2 year difference between the two of us.

Long story short, when I was about 14, my cousin and I shared an intimate moment while at a party at his place. I was developing, hormones were a mess, we felt attracted and we kissed. Things were awkwad afterwards when we were in public or with family, but it happened again a few times after. One day, we got together to eat at his house after school. My brother couldn't come because of an extra class he used to take. We ate, then we hugged watching a movie, then I lost my virginity to him. He made love to me unprotected, fortunately nothing happened.

My brother started noticing our strange behavior, and he point blank asked me what was up. I confessed everything. he seemed a bit jealous. He kep telling me our cousin was family, basically "another brother" to us. I thought his jealousy was kinda cute, and it got me thinking: yeah, my cousin was almost like another brother. I loved him, and genuinely cared about and was attracted to him. I knew it was technically wrong, but it didn't feel that way. My cousin and I kept at it until one fateful, awkward day when the three of us were together, alone. My cousin and I started wrestling, my brother was awkwardly watching until I pulled him in to join us. One thing led to another and, before we knew what was happening, I was sharing a very passionate kiss with my brother. Both of them were shocked. We just kind of stopped there, and my brother and I awkwardly walked back home together. No one was there. We kind of freaked out, talked it out, and concluded it couldn't be wrong if it felt right and came from a place of love. We had sex that afternoon, before our mother came home.

It was a strange arrangement at first, but both my brother and my cousin both became my lovers at the same time. People did start talking that we seemed a little too close, but we never did anything out in the open. We went on casual "dates" and acted like normal family members in public, but we were very sexual in private. At first I split my time between the two but, as we got older, we started experimenting together. For many years, they made love to me together. sometimes we would go on weekend getaways together and no one would suspect a thing, we were just family having a good time away together. If only our parents knew.

They never found out, and they still haven't. But things changed. Our cousin moved abroad and even got married after a few years, but whenever he visits or I visit, we find time to get together in secret and spent at least a day making love. My brother and I still live in the same town and we get together "for lunch" rather frequently. We date other people for appearances, but we're still each others' true lovers.