Messing With Brother

I think i was 10, maybe 11 when I started playing "30 seconds in heaven" (in a completely dark closet) It would usually be me age 10ish, male cousin 13, female cousin 12, and my brother who was also 13. It was always me and my male cousin. The most i let him do was rub my crotch with just panties on. And he liked to dry hump me while i wore panties. Im pretty sure he had his bare dick out when he dry humped me. It was a walkin closet. I dlay on my tummy while he laid on top of me. I really didnt like the game but it made me feel cool because the older kids let me hangout with them. Wasnt long before my brother asked me on time if he would play it with him. Just him and I. I told me know probably 5 times that summer but i gave in. Same thing for the most part. What really freaked me out the first time he asked if i would sit on his face, with panties of course... i was like WTF?! But i did. he laid in the closet on him back and I squated over his face. He well suck on my "area" through the panties... Ill be honest, it felt really good and at time i almost "got off" I have "got off" before on my own... humping pellows, etc. The time he got me high on weed, my first time, we played outside the closet. He had me bent over the couch. I was in my panties but the asshole pulled them aside and started licking my puss and butthole... he held me down, i remmeber telling him to get the fuck off me. that lasted probably 30sec till he had cum all over my leg and panties... needless to say that was the last time i ever played that game.... with anyone... i remember thinking "WTF? Why did he lick my butthole?" i was only 10ish, i didnt know guys liked to do that to girls... i had to google it lol... till this say, i dont like ate out, and def not my butthole... weird times...