It Happened A Long Time Ago

I was 24, on my own, with my own apartment in New York, uptown manhattan. I thought I had it all, a woman who had a great job, and occasionally dated different guys. It wasn't a doorman bldg on the upper west side, but it was a good building. I had several nights of very late working at the office, the company had a car service for after hours. When I left the office it was 2am. The driver let me off right in front and I went into the building, there was a guy waiting for the elevator. I paid no attention. After the 3rd floor he reached over, Roughly he pulled me around with my back to him and the only words he said "Pull down your pants". I tried to turn around and say something but that earned me two fists to the head. I was dizzy and yet I knew what was going to happen. He undid my belt, pulled down my jeans, and ripped my panties off one leg moving them down the other to my knees. He roughly bent me over squirted something on me and stuck what must have been the biggest penis I've certainly had into me. He fucked me, it was over in less than a minute, he ripped off my panties from the other leg. Taking them with him he got off the next floor, and I heard him running to the stairs as I was crying trying to pull up my pants and get to my apartment.

I was numb, totally numb, I'd been forced in my own apartment building. I did the report, let the police woman ask me all kinds of terrible questions while male doctors were taking sperm samples. They gave me an option of a D&C, which would make sure I never got pregnant from it. I took the option. I left the apartment and not being able to afford it, moved to a doorman building. I couldn't face a sexual situation for over 10 years, then when I did it was as a single woman at a hedonist resort. I let so many strangers, men, women, couples have sex with me and again I was numb after each evening alone in my room.

I lived with a lesbian woman as a partner for 4 years, but couldn't let go and she eventually left. I told one person in my life, and only one. Now I'm 68 and still remember it so vividly it's like it happened again. I'm too old to attract anyone now, and don't want to anyway, but if I wasn't so old, I think I'd go to the resorts again, just to have more sex. I wanted to have so much sex with so many partners, he was long in the past. He is in the total of men and woman but not in my mind. I can only hope that he eventually got caught and got the same treatment in prison that he gave me in that elevator.