This Could Be You

An update to post #64184. You just came by again this morning!
You were also here yesterday. I was overjoyed to see you twice in the same week!

Your new curly hair is gorgeous! I let you know this yesterday as you crossed the threshold to my home.

But it is your demeanor and disposition on life despite your circumstances that I see your inner beauty.

I'm so nervous because I feel I cannot hide my care for you. I need to back down when I am near you.

This morning I teased you about your 'bill', and "just you wait until you get the bill". Ugh, you owe us nothing for this. Then I texted you the notion that I'm not serious about the 'bill' and I'm happy to do anything to help you.

Why am I doing this? Why am I walking into the fire for you? You could not be interested in me, plus I desire to make life better for you and I would only complicate ours.

You replied you appreciate it more than you could express. My weakness wishes we could. I must tame my thoughts. I must not deviate. I must behave.

Though I crave, I must not cave.