Lesbian Female / 26
Coming Out Of A Nightmare,
My first boy girl party in the seventh grade included spin the bottle and other games. Kissing with a blindfold on, letting boys cop a feel of their first titty. Everyone played, some girls came to surrender their virginity to boys willing to help them, aka a vaccination against virginity. As a girl raised in a prurient family, a church goer, and unwilling to surrender my virginity, I was 'gang r**ed' by several boys.
My father, an attorney pressed charges. Their fathers, attorneys, business managers, doctors, persuaded the court to hold juvenile hearings, not force me to relive the unfortunate incident, find the boys guilty, and immediately release them to their parents' custody. After two years of solid hood their records expunged.
I went on with my life, my parents assured me I was still a virgin. It would be ten years before I let a man touch me, on my arm, not cop a feel. That same year during summer holidays at our family's beach house I wore a two piece bathing suit. My first public display of my feminine form.
A fellow worker, the one person with whom I had confided, suggested I take some therapy with a woman, not a man, who specialized in recovery. I hated telling him I was sick of therapy, it went nowhere. He then said I needed to get 'back on the horses. After further talks I asked him, 'you do it', get me back on the horse.
Sex with anyone devoid of feelings is the poorest firm of masturbation, it did nothing for me. It was me not him. A girl I met told me my sexual trigger had been turned off. I needed to light the fuse again. Try someone you don't know, and they don't know. Get laid. I did, again nothing.
What did work, aroused me, was a drunk party celebration where I ended up between a cousin and his girlfriend. He was insistent, she encouraged him. I can't say if it was him or her, but I did reach orgasm. Why wouldn't it? Incest, lesbian sex, three way. I became the middle lover between them. She was the instigator, he went along, he liked tucking his blood cousin, she liked performing lesbian sex for him. And I went into orgasm.
What opinion would a therapist have? My friend at work? I didn't tell him. Those boys are men, with college degrees. I'm impregnated by my cousin, waking up in a girl's arms. A morning quickie is an after shower lovemaking with another woman. I'm a lesbian.
My father, an attorney pressed charges. Their fathers, attorneys, business managers, doctors, persuaded the court to hold juvenile hearings, not force me to relive the unfortunate incident, find the boys guilty, and immediately release them to their parents' custody. After two years of solid hood their records expunged.
I went on with my life, my parents assured me I was still a virgin. It would be ten years before I let a man touch me, on my arm, not cop a feel. That same year during summer holidays at our family's beach house I wore a two piece bathing suit. My first public display of my feminine form.
A fellow worker, the one person with whom I had confided, suggested I take some therapy with a woman, not a man, who specialized in recovery. I hated telling him I was sick of therapy, it went nowhere. He then said I needed to get 'back on the horses. After further talks I asked him, 'you do it', get me back on the horse.
Sex with anyone devoid of feelings is the poorest firm of masturbation, it did nothing for me. It was me not him. A girl I met told me my sexual trigger had been turned off. I needed to light the fuse again. Try someone you don't know, and they don't know. Get laid. I did, again nothing.
What did work, aroused me, was a drunk party celebration where I ended up between a cousin and his girlfriend. He was insistent, she encouraged him. I can't say if it was him or her, but I did reach orgasm. Why wouldn't it? Incest, lesbian sex, three way. I became the middle lover between them. She was the instigator, he went along, he liked tucking his blood cousin, she liked performing lesbian sex for him. And I went into orgasm.
What opinion would a therapist have? My friend at work? I didn't tell him. Those boys are men, with college degrees. I'm impregnated by my cousin, waking up in a girl's arms. A morning quickie is an after shower lovemaking with another woman. I'm a lesbian.
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