I did it with my neighbor. He's married, and I'm friends with his wife. I never did it before, and I don't even know what happened. I mean, I know what happened, but it was all so fast I don't know how I wound up with my clothes off in his bed doing all sorts of things I never done before. I've done some stuff before, but not that.

Now I'm not a virgin anymore and I'm probably pregnant and I screwed over my friend who's been more of a mom to me than my own one is cause I let him do whatever he wanted. I don't know what to do.

Maybe I should let my bf do it with me and then if something happens I can tell him it must be from him. But then if I'm not pregnant now maybe I will be then, and at least this way I know who got me that way. But then I lose my friend who I need now more than ever, but who I screwed over cause I did it with her husband. I feel like getting drunk but that is how this whole thing started in the first place. And if I am pregnant I'm not supposed to get drunk. I can't look her or my bf in the face.

Please please please let me not be pregnant. I won't get drunk anymore if I'm just please not pregnant.