Straight Female / 27
Too Much Sex Too Early In Life
I struggled a lot with school. It wasn't the lessons, it was the other kids. I didn't fit in. My family is very religious and we were not allowed to be friends with many of the kids. I turned 14 and went to Junior High, which was another campus with children from two other elementary schools. Things were quite different and kids experimented with sex and alcohol and dru&s.
One girl in my 3rd period class came down pregnant. The father was a boy from another school who was in the 10th grade. Why she told me I will never know, but I went to my mother, who called her mother. She hated me for doing that, she wanted an abortion. It was impossible for me to understand that back then, it is impossible for me to understand that now. I bring this up as an example of the kind of school I had to attend.
Permissiveness was everywhere. When I was in the tenth grade I was forced into having sex with a senior, in front of the other people. It was embarrassing and humiliating. More embarrassing when I had to stand to try and catch my clothes which were being played with. Everyone there was into it, everyone except me. I became one of those girl with friends who were also one of those girls. Sex, alcohol and dru&s. We were popular, I got birth control through a woman who got them for girls without parental permission. At first I paid careful attention with whom I had sex, the boy at the party was my obvious partner. But I had sex with other boys at parties. I would lie if I didn't say I liked it.
In junior high I thought I would be valedictorian. In twelfth grade I was lucky to pass with a C average. I partied with sex, and for sex. What was once prohibited became normal, a ritual. My peers were no different, if you wanted to remain popular you had sex. We had sex and we were popular.
Unfortunately those choices prevented me from going to a good college, my behavior made it difficult to be taken seriously, in spite of permissiveness men do not like girls who have slept around, it's the virgins that got married. I am no longer a slut, I have principles. The same principles I had before I got in with the wrong crowd. I am hoping to meet a man that can look past my high school days. I do regret it now. It's a reputation that follows you, somebody knows you and that somebody tells on you.
One girl in my 3rd period class came down pregnant. The father was a boy from another school who was in the 10th grade. Why she told me I will never know, but I went to my mother, who called her mother. She hated me for doing that, she wanted an abortion. It was impossible for me to understand that back then, it is impossible for me to understand that now. I bring this up as an example of the kind of school I had to attend.
Permissiveness was everywhere. When I was in the tenth grade I was forced into having sex with a senior, in front of the other people. It was embarrassing and humiliating. More embarrassing when I had to stand to try and catch my clothes which were being played with. Everyone there was into it, everyone except me. I became one of those girl with friends who were also one of those girls. Sex, alcohol and dru&s. We were popular, I got birth control through a woman who got them for girls without parental permission. At first I paid careful attention with whom I had sex, the boy at the party was my obvious partner. But I had sex with other boys at parties. I would lie if I didn't say I liked it.
In junior high I thought I would be valedictorian. In twelfth grade I was lucky to pass with a C average. I partied with sex, and for sex. What was once prohibited became normal, a ritual. My peers were no different, if you wanted to remain popular you had sex. We had sex and we were popular.
Unfortunately those choices prevented me from going to a good college, my behavior made it difficult to be taken seriously, in spite of permissiveness men do not like girls who have slept around, it's the virgins that got married. I am no longer a slut, I have principles. The same principles I had before I got in with the wrong crowd. I am hoping to meet a man that can look past my high school days. I do regret it now. It's a reputation that follows you, somebody knows you and that somebody tells on you.
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