I Don’t Think This Was Ok

I was about nine when I saw my first porn. My friend’s older brother showed me clips and stuff he liked. He even had a short video of his sister in the shower that he had stollen from his dad. She was beautiful, blonde curly hair large breasts I had liked looking at her before but I became a little obsessed and he used this against me.
He showed me a lot of porn of people sucking dick. He didn’t really care if it was male or female performing the task. He then asked me to suck his dick like in the clips. He said he had more of his sister. I did it. He showed me he wasn’t liking he really did have more. I do not have a clue how are where he got some of them. It became a regular thing and I got really good at sucking dick and liked it. He showed me her masturbating, making out with girls, and promises he had one that I would really like but it would cost me. I was super confused I had been sucking his dick and swallowing his cum at least once a week for a fucking year. I told him I thought I had more than earned everything.
He then started showing me anal videos. First just people slurping buttholes and tongue fucking then actual penetration my little dick was so hard it ached and it didn’t go unnoticed. He used spit and olive oil to finger my butthole. At first it felt weird and hurt a little. Then it started feeling better and better. He would just stroke his dick and finger me while we watched porn. After some time, like a few months I had become comfortable with three fingers in my ass. He had been hinting at the secret video for a while, like what it was and so on. I knew it was her getting fucked by her really hot bf.
He said if he could fuck my ass he would show me anytime I asked. He hit play after he had slid his dick balls deep into me. Sure enough it was my goddess getting plowed by a god. It was crappy quality like the rest. Her bf was the cameraman but was so worth it. He showed me that video anytime too.
Thankfully he stole his parents Astroglide. He used my mouth or ass at least once a week. Even when he had a gf he still would fuck me on the side. He showed her off to me too. In retrospect I know I was groomed and don’t really know how to feel about the whole situation.