Idk..

Gay sex is confusing to me.

I'm a nice guy who can't land women. I hook up with men. I get bent over the bed by rough men who hungrily dominate my twink frame. They put my lips and ass to work on their big cocks. They're always bigger than mine. Always longer, thicker, if not both.

I hate the fact I have to feel a larger set of balls smack my smaller ones. When I'm getting pounded I always think of my female dates who dump me and say I'm a nice guy. That I'm going to find the one. Some girl out there will want the nice guy... I always think of the love of my life as a cock is grinding inside my tight hole.

One thing I notice is tops tend to use the minimal amount of lube required to get it going. So when I'm getting shafted I have to deal with it.

I never want to disappoint.. So I always playfully and submissively say "Ooh... I had to be a bottom!" And I kick my feet slightly as I'm painfully being shafted. Some take the hint some don't.

I love the validation though... "Nice ass your hot! Mmm fuck!" All the things the men say. Two have even asked me to be in a relationship which I said yes to. But I'm always the girl in the relationship.

Everytime I'm dumped by a crush it's always the same cycle. Slurping, sucking, and gagging on a fat cock before being bent over a bed or table to get shafted by a hungry man. When my thick cake claps loudly during rough sex I always feel humiliation that I'm not man enough for the girl. I think this is my real place. Being on all fours that I should just accept being gay.

Don't know if this is normal thought for bottoms. It's like a mixture. It does feel good and I like the sex, but there's things I don't like about it. Idk.. Its fucced up lol.