If Only...

If it wasn't for my fear of catching some disease, I'd leave my wife and be a total slut to anyone who wanted to use me. I dream to suck cock and swallow load after load. I want to get fucked in every hole. I fuck myself in my ass with anything whenever I get the chance. My favorite toy is usually 20oz bottles of soda. They are huge and gape me and I can just throw them out when I'm done.

I give myself a prostate massage and cum an entire load into a condom and i drink every drop. I suck it dry and I always want more. My desire to eat cum is almost unbearable.

I don't know how to deal with it anymore. The longer I wait, the more I need it. If I ever mentioned anything like that to my wife, it'd be over. Shes not sexually interested in anything not normal borderline Amish style sex.

I think if I found a guy I could trust enough, I would do it. We could basically have a relationship where I swallow his cum any time he wanted. I dont think one guy would be enough though. I know that the taste of one would set me completely loose.