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Wet Stories
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Straight Female / 37
Learning Ever So Slowly To Check My Temper
I no longer insist I'm not in the lesbian orbit. But I did for a long time. I got married under pressure, had children under pressure. I won't say I don't have feelings for my husband, he's the best thing for me. I need, in capital letters, NEED a strong hand keeping me in check. I'm impulsive, I say things before thinking, I become obsessed with issues and ignore others. I attack before listening. I NEED to be kept in check, but I don't like it. Better my husband than someone else.
It took ten years of self discovery to admit I have a serious problem with men in general, I hate male authority. But I'm over the top when it comes to women, I'm worse than a man. Do you hear my husband pulling me back by my chain? I have to learn to shut up.
My lesbian realization came after falling for Mary. I had a very confusing relationship with her, with bouts of anxiety, jealousy. We are better now, small steps, watch what I say. My husband is willing to let me try, maybe just maybe, this has been my problem all along. Currently Mary is moved in, to see if we can live with each other 24_7.
My kids are becoming teenagers, they need me more level headed, not flying off the handle. Mary helps to keep the dragon in check. Between her steady hand and my husband's watchful eye I'm slowly keeping my blow ups in check.
I'm not in therapy, unless you call my husband's paddle therapy. I hate saying I'm a frustrated bitch, but any outsider will say I am.
It took ten years of self discovery to admit I have a serious problem with men in general, I hate male authority. But I'm over the top when it comes to women, I'm worse than a man. Do you hear my husband pulling me back by my chain? I have to learn to shut up.
My lesbian realization came after falling for Mary. I had a very confusing relationship with her, with bouts of anxiety, jealousy. We are better now, small steps, watch what I say. My husband is willing to let me try, maybe just maybe, this has been my problem all along. Currently Mary is moved in, to see if we can live with each other 24_7.
My kids are becoming teenagers, they need me more level headed, not flying off the handle. Mary helps to keep the dragon in check. Between her steady hand and my husband's watchful eye I'm slowly keeping my blow ups in check.
I'm not in therapy, unless you call my husband's paddle therapy. I hate saying I'm a frustrated bitch, but any outsider will say I am.
