Still A Virgin, Waiting For A Man To Come Around The Corner

I can't, as in CAN NOT, disobey my mother's boyfriend. He is not my stepdad, but he has been around a long time, like since I was seven. No there is no sex with him, never was. He is strict, and has principles, and girls have their place and all that. He has sex with my mom. obviously. I've seen him naked many times, we live in a two bedroom with one bathroom. I've seen my mom sucking him off and I've seen them 'engaged' with his dick in her. My mother doesn't care of I see them, him or her. The quicker I grow up the better and I will be right where she is sucking dick and taking it. The bigger the hammer the more I'm supposed to like it.

One day my mother was not in the mood. He was, and he wasn't waiting for her to come to him. He got her over the sink, she was washing dishes, and he got his dick in her and finished her. She took a dishtowel and wiped herself before giving him the dishtowel to wipe off his dick. The clock on the oven went off and we sat down to dinner. No one said anything about me sitting at the table watching him take her right then and there.

I'm a freshman in college and I go out with a group, I don't date one on one. Seems that this is the current way to get to know people. To me the guys I meet today are so totally not worth respecting. He says they don't have balls. I agree with him. Not once, has any one of these guys ever tried to get smart with me, to grab my ass or steal a kiss. If their hand barely touches me they are apologizing. I get along better with the girls, who at least have opinions and are far more aggressive.

My destiny is to meet a man who doesn't give a shit about political correctness, and is looking for a girl to wash his dishes. I don't mind, at all washing dishes, I've been washing dishes since I was tall enough to look over the sink. In the meantime I'm still a virgin. I probably know more about sex, real sex, than just about any of my friends, but that doesn't do me any good if there isn't a guy to take advantage of it. Don't get me wrong, I do not want to be mistreated, I do want a man I can look up to. When I dream about sex it's always the same dream, with my hand between my legs holding my dildo in me, wishing I was bent over the sink. I want to get fucked, maybe even made love to. But I have not met the man that I want to fuck me.

I know I'm spoiled because basically I have grown up around a man. He is my role model.