Seems Like You Can Never 'leave' Your Husband

After a short affair with a girl in college I rejected any other same sex relationship. By the time I left college it was a memory, a 'college' thing. I started working and a much more experienced man felt me up in a bar. And not a little but. I had a lot to drink and I blew him in his car. I woke up with him with a scratchy memory if the night before. He thought I was experienced, but the truth is it was my first time having intercourse.

Over the following months I dated him, and I lost count (he refused condoms) and I got pregnant. After several discussions we got married. At the altar I knew it was a mistake but I went through it anyway. Those last two months before the baby came, and the month or so of recovery kept him wanting, but no relief. He cheated several times. I didn't care, I should have clued in that I wasn't in love. I told her on an occasion that she should take serious precautions and not get pregnant. A year later I was divorced.

And out of no where 'she' showed up. Make up sex was intense, we wet the bed, and woke up in a pretzel. She loved my baby instantly. We talked and she told me she wanted to start over. After my loveless sex with baby daddy, and lust and live filled sex with her the night before I blurted out my love for her and for her to not leave me again. We got married a few weeks later.

Baby daddy comes over and stays overnight, on the couch. Midnight my wife says I was mean making him sleep alone. She got up and went to the baby's room, telling me to go get him. He did sleep with me for the rest of the night. No sex. My wife was upset, 'that's your husband'. In her book a woman can never divorce, once she is married, she is married. My 'husband' has full access again, once his wife always his wife. My wife has on accession forgotten to go to the bed in the baby's room when he's with me, it's cold sleeping alone and she wants to be warm.