First Time Using A Dildo

When I was 10 I found a double sided dildo under my parents bed. It was about 18" or 20" long and more than 2" in diameter. I used olive oil to lube it up. I slowly pushed the fat head up to my little butt hole and kept on pitting pressure onto it. Finally I pushed a bit harder and boom just the head popped in. It hurt to the point it took my breath away. I felt accomplished and even though it hurt it felt great and my tiny cock got rock hard. I was able to slowly slide it in about 4 or 5 more inches. It felt like it was all the way in my stomach but I loved it. I slid it in and out about 20 times while jacking off and even though I was to young to cum I orgasmed incredibly. Pulling it out felt great until I pulled out the flared head then it hurt just like it did when I stuck it in. I did this twice more but the last time it made my boy bum bleed so I stopped using it custom at that age that scared me. I miss that dildo