Wild Year With College-age Guys After Divorce

I've been divorced for a year after being married to a woman for more than 30 years. I'm a father of two adult children. The last 10 years of the marriage there was no sex at all. I didn't cheat during the marriage, just jerked off a lot. Got addicted to twink porn. After divorce I got settled into new house, asked out a woman I knew who was also divorced, turned out she had a boyfriend. I was always kind of attracted to guys too so I created a Gr*ndr profile. I was so inexperienced. I started out hosting blo-n-gos, giving oral. I was amazed how many younger guys liked older. Then one guy wanted to f*ck me, so I let him. It hurt a little at first but then felt amazing. I couldn't believe what I missed out all those years. I slept really well that night. Then guys wanted me to f*ck them. I gained confidence with more experience. I was really happy having lots of fun, hooking up two to three times a week, every week. I was comfortable with inexperienced guys. There were a lot of scared rabbits though that would flake out and ghost, just not show up without any word. A few times after great sex some said they wanted relationships but then I never heard from them again. I mostly liked to give oral sex and anilingus. I enjoyed making college-age guys happy and loved hearing them moan in appreciation when I made them feel good. I liked receiving, too, and topping, and had a lot of great sex over the past year but I was worried about becoming too promiscuous. When I had sex it was almost always bareback. I would breed and get bred. I knew the risks but I thought I selected partners carefully and didn't do random public hookups in parks or restrooms. After years of feeling rejected for sex by my ex and having low self esteem I was finally happy again and feeling wanted. I feel bad now though, and foolish, but not surprised that I may have a STD. I've made an appointment to get tested and quit Gr*ndr cold turkey. I feel like I just went through a slut phase that maybe some people do when they're younger. It was really hot f*cking attractive guys 40 years younger. I have amazing memories of encounters with many partners but taking a break now. I may have scratched that itch and gotten it out of my system. I may never do random NSA hookups again and just look for a stable partner instead.