Sharing My Experience With First Time Sex

I read several confessions about losing your virginity to an older man. I was 16, he was 28. It was like a story, like someone was reading me a story. When he stood me up to pull my panties down I got shy about it, he was going to look at my pussy. I turned around so he could pull my panties down, but he would see my behind. Of course as soon as I stepped out of my panties he turned me around.

There I was totally naked in our living room, he stood and took all his clothes off. His penis was half hard, I had only seen little boys I had baby sat. He had me sit on the carpet, then lay back and open my legs. Now he really examined me, I got very nervous. He used his fingers to get me wet. I closed my eyes and waited. The act itself was surreal.

I sat on my bed thinking of what had happened. I knew the facts of life and went to the calendar in my mind. I counted the days, realizing that just like there are period days, there are fertile days. And I was in my fertile days.

The days passed slowly, my period was late, then really late. By the time my period came I was resigned to being an unwed mother, sent to the alternative school for pregnant girls. To this day I welcome my period. It reminds me of the purpose I am on earth and that month I'm not going to be a mother.