I'm OK With It

I remember when I was like 5 me and my mom moved in with some family members for a few years with alot of children around my age and we all shared the room.

I remember night's where my older cousin 3 years my senior would touch me, mount me and grind her vagina on me at night. And she let my touch her.
We eventually moved out and i rarely ever got to see my cousin but I've had a crush on her ever since.

For a long time I didn't know what she was doing I just know I liked it, and I liked her. Everytime we've seen eachother since then there's always been this awkward tension even tho we're both always excited to see eachother.

As an adult now I've come to realize it's tension because she doesn't know if I remember what she did to me and she thinks I might remember and be upset. Little does she know if the opportunity rises I'd take her straight to pound town.

We both also grow up to be ridiculously attractive. The next time I see her I'm going to tell her I remember and see if she wants to she what this grown man feels like