A New Obsession

It's been a long while since I last posted, and while I thought I was done, the temptation keeps calling me back. I'm still with my girlfriend of now 2 years. But I've had a few new "trials" behind her back. I can't help it. I crave cock. I love sucking it. And, these last few times, I've even gotten them to cum in my mouth. It's much harder to find people who want to be sucked by someone so vanilla, but I do get them every now and again. I've had some other desires, though. A few months ago, I got to suck a nice, black cock while in his car. He was the first man to ever grab my ass while I sucked him. I felt so dirty, but so good. And while I don't want to feel another man inside me, I do want to have his cock grind against me. That feeling of his slippery shaft pounding and grinding against my ass turns me on so much. I want to be used like that. Have him cum on my ass and my back. Make me his slut. I just want to feel another man cum in my mouth again. It's been half a year since it happened last, and I can't hold it in any longer. While I do feel bad about cheating, It's a craving that must cum out.