Wife With Beta Male

I can only admit this here anonymously. I believe that I am a beta male. I’ve always tried to come across like an alpha but I don’t think I really am. I was a virgin until 21. I’ve met a woman that I am now married to and we fucked on the first date. We made an interesting couple, I have been a virgin and really shy around girls, and she was for lack of a better word a slut. I don’t use that insensitive as possible, I just don’t know what are the words to use. He admitted to me that she had been going to the local bar every night and she would always go home with a different guy and fuck now. I know from talking to other guys and my friends, I had moved there from a big city so all of my new friends pretty much told me about my new girlfriend what they said she famous for was giving great blow jobs. On our first date, she fucked me and my friend who had been drinking with us, gave her a ride home and she fucked him when they got to his house. With me being a former virgin you would’ve thought that would’ve made me jealous and I guess it did to a certain extent, but I was getting pussy from her and blowjobs on a regular basis and so I really wasn’t too worried about it. I have gone from no sex and masturbating every day to be with a woman that really likes sex was fucking me all of the time. She had a very strong personality and likes to be in charge. She always to charge sexually and I let her do that because it all always felt so good. When she would try to take control in the relationship outside of sex I usually drop into an argument with her. She always claims that she was completely faithful to me after we got married, I don’t really know, and there’s something about my make up that always enjoyed in theory were talk about having sex with so many other men. I always wanted her to tell me about it, but I never let her know that it turned me on. I just let her volunteer information. We were talking one time, and I did ask her how many men she had had sex with at one time, she told me that she had let six men fuck her at the same time. I masturbated a lot thinking about that. Being married to a sex machine and having been so introverted until that point, I really lit myself go and try to convince her to do some kinky things with me. She ended up living her best friend suck my dick while she watched us. That was really a turn off. Couple of weeks after that I convinced her to suck my best friends day. Before she finish sucking his dick, I ended up fucking her doggy style. It is incredible to be fucking your wife while you watch her. Suck another guys dick. We ended up doing a whole lot of stuff with my friend that was really cool. As we got older, she just lost interest in sex. Whenever I try to initiate it, she gets frustrated. As I’ve gotten older, I have come to realize that a whole lot of work sex drive call from watching guys get their dicks, sucked and watching a woman, particularly someone’s wife yes, fucked by other man or watching someone’s wife to head to other men. I have Fantasized about convincing my wife to give head to some younger guys while I won. I also like to eat her pussy about all of the guys that have orgasmed inside of it. Once, I’ve got seven or eight years ago we were fucking in the middle of the effort and she said wait just a minute. She ran downstairs and came back with a huge cucumber and told me to put it in her pussy. I licked her clit and fucked her with that huge cucumber until she came. It was probably 10 or 11 inches long and really big around. So hot that she had wanted something a lot bigger than I had to give her in the pussy. I remember she was so turned on and wet her pussy had loosened so that that huge cucumber slipped in with no problem. As I fucked her with it I kept going deeper until I was able to get it in all the way in till her pussy lips closed around it. For some reason I get sexually aroused, knowing that someone else is a feeling pleasure. After that, I brought cucumbers home a lot, but it only worked a couple more times. I’m thinking that I just need to completely on my Betta cell cell and try to convince her to fuck some other girl. I’ll be in Reached the Point that I will be OK if she would just tell me about it after the fact. It’s very clear my wife wants to dominate MD in charge of Lupe OK with that if she will start to satisfying some other men sexually.