My Fault I Kept Asking

I married a wonderful woman a year ago. Both of us had previously married and divorced. Even though I fell in love with her quickly we dated for two years before we married. The reason being that she was very cautious and distrustful. She would never give me too many details but she made it obvious her first husband was extremely abusive.
And being not too bright I kept asking her about the relationship. Mainly why she would have remained married to him for 12 years if he was so abusive to her. One night after a few glasses of wine at a restaurant she was in the mood to talk. During the drive home she told me "almost" everything. What she told me was horrible. Her ex was a high school sweetheart. They got married right after graduation. Thats when he changed. At first he was controlling and verbally abusive. Physical abuse followed, especially when he was intoxicated. She described him as being a sadistic type that got excited at physically abusing her and would usually r**e her during the beatings. She went into graphic detail describing how he would brutally r**e her in the ass as punishment or share her with his drinking buddies.
By the time we got home I couldn't believe what she had just told me. Then I did it, I asked "why did you stay for 12 years"? And I got my answer. She went into a closet and rummaged through a couple of boxes until she pulled out an envelope and handed it to me. Unfortunately I opened it. Inside were nude pictures of her husband. I had never seen anything like this on any porn movie. His dick was so big I didn't think it could be real. She told me he was a full, legit 11.5 inches and it looked as big around as a water bottle. I couldn't believe how any woman could take something like that. She sat me down and told me she was addicted to the sex. That is when he wasn't trying to make it hurt.
Now I have a new problem. My dick is maybe 5 inches when rock hard. How can I be pleasing her, even in the least. A year of marriage and dating 2 full years she has refused to let me fuck her in the ass. But she took the ex in her ass? I have avoided sex for the past week. What am I going to do now that I have this image in my head?

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mallwalker54

by mallwalker54 on Jun 29, 2023 at 3:24 PM

Not much you can do. You can appreciate that she feels safe enough with you to be open and honest about her past, abuse victims very rarely open up about that stuff to anyone, even their partners. You can be grateful that she chose you. And you can accept the truth, that her ex-husband's much bigger dick was so satisfying that she put up with that abuse longer than you two have been married. It's okay that she won't let you put it in her ass, you don't deserve it. Your little pecker would just be uncomfortable poking around back there. You might want to spend some time reassuring her, let her know that you understand why she did it. Instead of trying to compete with her ex, try getting better at pleasing her with your mouth and hands.

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