Daddy Issues

Ok. I feel dirty just saying this. Don't judge me because that is why we have places like this where we admit things here that no one can ever know in our real life.

Ok here goes, I am 19 and I seriously want to fuck a man my dad's age or older and I'd preferably want him to be married. I don't want to have an affair I just want to do a random hook up with and older family man in his 30s, 40's or 50s. I want to be a "one and done" cheat for a hard working daddy who just needs guilt free discreet time that no one ever ever finds out about.

This as been my fantasy I have masterbated to in the tub since I was 13... but now I am old enough and secure enough to do it.

....Let me explain. My dad is the best dad ever. Not just to me but my two siblings too. He is always there for us. My mom can be a bit of a bitch too him but he loves her too. We have a very happy home life. She is good looking and trust me it's a small house and we all know they are still sexual active. Despite her being bossy and a bit of a "Karen" dad has always given her a great life, loved her and made us respect her. Dad always works really hard to provide for what we need yet still always makes our events and is present in all our lives.

When I was 13 I borrowed his laptop for my homework and dad forgot to sign out of his secret email and that's the day I discovered he cheats on my mom. I mean I saw the proof. At first i just saw steamy emails. But i got into his settings wrote down the log info and honestly over the years I secretly followed his conquests and lets just say i saw more of my Dad doing stuff then any daughter should see.

I was hurt at first of course... but at 13 and 14 I was just getting sexual myself and reading emails where my saintly father spoke brutally filthy things like getting his balls sucked and blowing loads on some girls face or pound a tight college age pussy behind his wife's back...well it got to me...and honestly it gave me some of my earliest organisms.

So, I kept his secret and spied on his sex life form a far and always covered for him when he stepped out or was late. I felt like his secret helper. He did have a few affairs with married co-workers (that i did not approve of )but he clearly strung them a long for the sex. He mostly did hook ups with sugar babies. He really likes college age pussy and her worked hard to afford some a few times a year.

Anyways, this is getting long. But I got real fucking Daddy issues now. Lol... I don't have anyone to tell. I'd never rat him out. And I want to do this for a hard working father myself. Maybe (probably) many. No strings release sex. I want to be a hard working man's guilt free snack.

But I don't want to be a sugar baby or sell myself. I don't know where to start.

This has been my dream since I was 13. Any married men have suggestions on how get started?