Straight Female / 20
He Wanted Me To Dominate Him And I'm Starting To Like It
I'm a college student who'll be starting her junior year in the fall. I have small scholarships which is enough for most of my tuition but not fees and living expenses (I live off campus and commute to save money).
I joined one of those sugar baby sites last winter in hopes of finding a sugar daddy. I found one. He's a widower, old (57) with grown kids and extremely wealthy. He seemed like he was bored with life so I wasn't too surprised when he started talking about his kinky desires. He wanted me to dominate him, humiliate him, and be a brat, basically. I felt uncomfortable when I heard all this. It wasn't my nature to do any of that.
It took awhile but I learned to give him what he wants, and now I'm sort of addicted to it. He's not into spanking or physical punshments or things like that except for slapping his face or grabbing his genitals. I verbally humiliate him, belittle him, make fun of his size. He rarely wants regular sex, but he loves worshiping my body and going down on me.
He also has the cuckolding kink, and he encourages me to go out on dates while he stays home (he rented a nice apartment for me and he lives with me part of the time). Sometimes I don't actually see anybody when I go out, I just pretend to, then come back home and tell him how much fun I had with a guy. He pampers me and caters to me and I can't deny I love it. He loves it when I act like a petulent psycho bitch. He tells me I put the "hot" in "psychotic." He doesn't want me to be satisfied with anything he does for me so that's how I act. Most of this is in private but he likes me to ignore him or be snarky to him in public sometimes, and that's tough for me.
He gives me credit cards with limits I couldn't have dreamed of and makes sure I have a steady flow of cash. He likes for me to snap my fingers and hold my hand out. He buys me j*welry and clothes, bought me a car, bought my textbooks, paid my fees and the rest of my tuition. I'd like to tell him I'm thankful but it would mess things up from his point of view.
I don't like what this is doing to my personality. Part of me hates acting like an entitled brat, but part of me likes it and I feel like I'm getting too comfortable with it. It's becoming second nature for me to be critical and demanding of him from the time we wake up until we go to bed. I have to shift my personality back and forth depending on whether I'm with friends or with him.
My parents aren't happy about any of this (what they know of it) but I don't want to give up everything I'm getting. I guess all I can do is keep my personalities seperate.
I joined one of those sugar baby sites last winter in hopes of finding a sugar daddy. I found one. He's a widower, old (57) with grown kids and extremely wealthy. He seemed like he was bored with life so I wasn't too surprised when he started talking about his kinky desires. He wanted me to dominate him, humiliate him, and be a brat, basically. I felt uncomfortable when I heard all this. It wasn't my nature to do any of that.
It took awhile but I learned to give him what he wants, and now I'm sort of addicted to it. He's not into spanking or physical punshments or things like that except for slapping his face or grabbing his genitals. I verbally humiliate him, belittle him, make fun of his size. He rarely wants regular sex, but he loves worshiping my body and going down on me.
He also has the cuckolding kink, and he encourages me to go out on dates while he stays home (he rented a nice apartment for me and he lives with me part of the time). Sometimes I don't actually see anybody when I go out, I just pretend to, then come back home and tell him how much fun I had with a guy. He pampers me and caters to me and I can't deny I love it. He loves it when I act like a petulent psycho bitch. He tells me I put the "hot" in "psychotic." He doesn't want me to be satisfied with anything he does for me so that's how I act. Most of this is in private but he likes me to ignore him or be snarky to him in public sometimes, and that's tough for me.
He gives me credit cards with limits I couldn't have dreamed of and makes sure I have a steady flow of cash. He likes for me to snap my fingers and hold my hand out. He buys me j*welry and clothes, bought me a car, bought my textbooks, paid my fees and the rest of my tuition. I'd like to tell him I'm thankful but it would mess things up from his point of view.
I don't like what this is doing to my personality. Part of me hates acting like an entitled brat, but part of me likes it and I feel like I'm getting too comfortable with it. It's becoming second nature for me to be critical and demanding of him from the time we wake up until we go to bed. I have to shift my personality back and forth depending on whether I'm with friends or with him.
My parents aren't happy about any of this (what they know of it) but I don't want to give up everything I'm getting. I guess all I can do is keep my personalities seperate.
