I’m Ready For More

I have been married 23 years. I have 3 siblings almost grown. I work full time. I do most of housework with the kids help. My husband doesn’t lift a finger to help with family duties. I take care of kids practices and activities. My husband goes to work, comes home, and only entertains himself. We bring home approximately the same money.
I love sex and for years my husband took care of me. The last ten or so years he really dropped off and just quick sex me not caring if I’m satisfied. I have my toys. I have realized this my life is missing something. I have given and given of myself and received little in return. I have always kept in shape and grade myself attractive. I decided I was ready for more in life. I have decided if someone wants sex with me I thought was acceptable I would do it. I started dressing more appealing. I started being more outgoing. I caught my husbands attention at a lake group get together. Instead of my usual one piece conservable swimsuit, I wore a string bikini showing my fit trim body. The husbands eyed me and the wives were offended. My husband discussed his surprise for me and I told him I’m going for more in life than I was getting. After discussion he promised to do better which only lasted about a month and then returned to only loving himself. I have decided I’m waiting for the opportunity to have sex with others. I’m not making it happen, but will proceed if I get the opportunity. I don’t think I will even feel guilty. I really don’t think my husband would be disturbed. I’m just waiting on an offer.