First Time Wasn't Like I Wanted M2m

I always wanted to have my first sex be with a girl, but instead it was with an older man. I am male, 18 he is gay and 36. Things just happened yesterday, and I got sucked off by him and really enjoyed cumming with someone else, not just my hand. Then it was my turn to reciprocate. To be honest, I didn't want anything to do with sex right after I came, but I knew I should give it to him too. So I put my cock back in my pants and got on my knees in front of him sitting on the couch. He pushed his hips up and took off his shorts revealing a much bigger cock than I have. I'm guessing 8 in and very thick. After a few minutes of my mouth open that wide it kinda hurt. He made me stand up and take off my clothes and kneel back down in front of him. he leaned forward and was playing with my nipples while I sucked on him. I was pretty chubby when young and when I grew my "boobs" still stayed around on my chest. He said he was about to cum and held my head in two hands, and pulled his cock out so only the head was just behind my lips. He shot off and I swallowed. I never liked the taste of my own but when he was oozing precum I really liked it and boy did I get a mouthful.

He and I were there, me on the floor collapsed and not really looking at him, my hand still on his cock and balls. He told me how good it made him feel, and asked to be sure he was my first. "come on, let's take a little rest" he said. he took off his shorts the rest of the way, and his tee shirt and grabbed my hand and led me to the bedroom. We laid down on the bed and with him softly stroking my ass and my back we both slept for a little while. I woke up with his spooning behind me rubbing his long cock in the crack of my ass. "It's time" he said. I really was embarrassed being naked with another guy, much less having just sucked his cock. I felt so self conscious, but he was lubing me for the next act. I said I really didn't intend to have any of this happen, and he just told me to relax and let it happen and enjoy.

Granted he took it slow, it hurt but once it was all the way in, he was still spooning behind me and he slowly started fucking motions. He tried to pull my face around like he wanted to kiss or something, I couldn't look at him. I couldn't look at the man who was fucking me for the first time. As I loosened up he increased the speed and soon he was on top of me, kissing my neck, I still couldn't look at him though I heard something in the room and I realized it was me, moaning and groaning, soon I was begging him for it, begging for him to do it to me. He made me say it "Fuck me, please, please fuck me" then he asked where I was being fucked, I told him to fuck my virgin ass, buttfuck me. Soon he thrust into me in short but really pushing into me as I actually felt the warmth of his sperm shooting into me.

He laid on top of me for a few minutes, then when his softening cock slipped out on it's own he rolled off me. I needed to go the toilet. While in there I couldn't believe that i finally had sex, but it was with a man, not a girl or woman. He yelled in to bring out a warm washcloth when I come out. I came out and washed off his cock for him. I realized when walking from the bath and back to washout the cloth, I was swishing a bit, I'd been fucked by a man, and I was the woman. I had his sperm taste still in my mouth and I liked it.

He sucked me again that day and fucked me before I left. I didn't want to, but we spent the time between naked together. I am still embarrassed by it all, he called me 4 times today telling me to drop by today. I know what he wants, I just don't know if I want him to do it to me again.