Just Need To Vent

When me and my wife first started dating after about a month she fell on hard times and needed money asap, I told her at the time to call the people she owed and request 2 days then when I was paid I'd give her the money plus extra so she had enough for extras.
The next day when I went to see her she was sat on the floor crying surrounded by tissues and started repeatedly saying she was sorry and begging me to forgive her.

I asked what was up and she explained that she went to see her mum and dad to borrow the money and they said no but the landlord next door over heard and asked her in. He said if she would do a sexy dance for him then suck his dick she could have the money and because she was desperate she agreed but when she did it he offered her extra saying it would be lots more.
She said how she did as he asked and had a massive stack of money so she trusted him. By the time they were done she'd danced, sucked and been fucked and she was treated like trash throughout the whole thing then he gave her the original money she needed. I asked her about the extra and she said he told her she was an ungrateful whore and she should learn to smile if she wanted more customers, she said that he then put £2 inside her cum filled pussy and told her to get out and get a happy meal so she could cheer up.

I sat with her for a while trying to help her calm down and process what she'd told me and was doing good until she tried using sex as a way to say sorry. I was genuinely turned off and aroused at the same time. I wanted to spit in her face call her a prostitute and make her feel shitty but at the same time I wanted to fuck her and do whatever i wanted to her but feeling all mixed emotions I just walked out and said nothing to her for a few days.
I went to see her after I'd cleared my head and thought it over and we moved on even getting married eventually and it's now been 20 years.

I only decided to share on here as a way to vent as every little thing I do is met with extreme blow outs by her and even got kicked out once for daring to talk with an anonymous person online and this always gets dragged back up, but not once have I ever used this against her only once coming close by saying she's done dumb stuff in the past but was knocked back by her saying get over it it's in the past.
Anyway if you read this thanks for sticking till the end.