In Love With My Coworker

I work as a cleaner in a high school, I have been working there off and on for the last few years.

I have a coworker, I don’t know exactly how old she is but I think late 40s, much older than me. She’s also married with kids, most of them now adults and not much younger than me.

I’ve known her for years but in the last few months especially we’ve started talking about our interests more and realised we share a lot in common. Particularly a love of the paranormal.

And the more I’ve gotten to know her, the more I think about her. To the point that sometimes she’s the only thing I’m thinking about. It’s not an obsession, but rather a deep attraction and affection, that kind of unrequited love that feels like it may be shared, but that I am far too worried to act on.

Although we get along really well, there’s every chance that it’s only a friendship connection to her. But when she comes to ask me for something or pulls me aside to discuss something, I can’t help my mind from theorizing that she’s doing it because she wants to see me as much as I wanted to see her.

I’m gonna ask her for her number when I see her again. Casually, the way I’d ask anyone else. But with the slight hope that maybe, just maybe, it could lead to something. Maybe hanging out, maybe doing something together, maybe more.

I’d never want to come between a married couple, but if I had the chance to make her as happy as she deserves to be, I’d do what I could to make that happen. To make her smile.