Straight Female / 24
Violations
I have been raaped 3 times.
I don't know why it happens to me.
The first time I was in high-school. I was drinking under age and I got very drunk at a party and passed out. I passed out as a virgin and woke up on a couch in a basement alone with my panties gone, skirt off, shirt rolled up exposing my boobs, and virginity gone. There was still fluid in my virgina and stains on the couch. I hurt down there bad. I was 15 humiliated and didn't know what to do. I got dressed and took off the back way. I told no one and prayed did not get pregnant. Thankfully I was not. Still I lost my virginity to raape and I don't even know how many guys had me or who watched. It fucked me up all high-school never which on my friends at that party raaped me or knew it happened. I have never forgiven myself for getting that drunk.
The second time it happened was a violent attack so I'll spare you the gross details. I was 19 and it happened in a parking lot at night leaving my job. I was beaten up hard. It was meant to hurt me. He came up behind me while I was putting my key in. It was thankfully fast. He wanted to hurt me as much as fuck me. His face was covered. He first beat me up. I thought he was going to kill me. But when I stopped resisting he bent me over the car and s***mized me and finished inside my butt and just left me like that. I did report this because I needed medical treatment but he was never found.
The last time was last year. It was date r**e. I was dating a guy actually from my office. I wasn't ready for sex but he was. Ibsaid no. He said yes. He later tried to tell me he thought I was playing hard to get or teasing. I clearly and repeatedly said no. I begged his to stop. He pinned me down, over powered me, and fucked me. We were not making love he was pinning me down and fucking me against my will and I was begging him to stop. There is zero chance this was consent. He knew what he was doing and the prick cummed in me. When I told him I was going to the police he said everyone at work knew we where dating and lots of people would back him up. I just didn't want yhe embarrassment so I transferred offices.
So there it is 3 times. I am only 24 and being violated is pretty much normal for me and worse yet its starting to get to the point that I can only orgasm with men when I feel dirty or disrespected. I am fucked up.
Is yhis for life now?
I don't know why it happens to me.
The first time I was in high-school. I was drinking under age and I got very drunk at a party and passed out. I passed out as a virgin and woke up on a couch in a basement alone with my panties gone, skirt off, shirt rolled up exposing my boobs, and virginity gone. There was still fluid in my virgina and stains on the couch. I hurt down there bad. I was 15 humiliated and didn't know what to do. I got dressed and took off the back way. I told no one and prayed did not get pregnant. Thankfully I was not. Still I lost my virginity to raape and I don't even know how many guys had me or who watched. It fucked me up all high-school never which on my friends at that party raaped me or knew it happened. I have never forgiven myself for getting that drunk.
The second time it happened was a violent attack so I'll spare you the gross details. I was 19 and it happened in a parking lot at night leaving my job. I was beaten up hard. It was meant to hurt me. He came up behind me while I was putting my key in. It was thankfully fast. He wanted to hurt me as much as fuck me. His face was covered. He first beat me up. I thought he was going to kill me. But when I stopped resisting he bent me over the car and s***mized me and finished inside my butt and just left me like that. I did report this because I needed medical treatment but he was never found.
The last time was last year. It was date r**e. I was dating a guy actually from my office. I wasn't ready for sex but he was. Ibsaid no. He said yes. He later tried to tell me he thought I was playing hard to get or teasing. I clearly and repeatedly said no. I begged his to stop. He pinned me down, over powered me, and fucked me. We were not making love he was pinning me down and fucking me against my will and I was begging him to stop. There is zero chance this was consent. He knew what he was doing and the prick cummed in me. When I told him I was going to the police he said everyone at work knew we where dating and lots of people would back him up. I just didn't want yhe embarrassment so I transferred offices.
So there it is 3 times. I am only 24 and being violated is pretty much normal for me and worse yet its starting to get to the point that I can only orgasm with men when I feel dirty or disrespected. I am fucked up.
Is yhis for life now?
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