My Unconventional Family

My background was sex free until that night. I was asexual. What happened that night changed my life. It wasn't sexual assault, it was sexual surprise. I knew what was happening, I just never thought it would happen to me. I was having an out of body experience, someone else was having sex, not me. It didn't become real until he held me down and kept me from leaving.

Being virgin and totally unprotected I got pregnant. Marriage was the answer, before I started to show. Everyone was embarrassed, my father angry with me threatened to disown me. My husband was my only means of support. He had a girlfriend and he told me that he would divorce me right after the baby was born. But he didn't divorce me, he got me pregnant again, and I didn't finish my degree for another two years. I didn't work, I stayed home and played Mom and Wife.

He continued with his girlfriend, he had sex with me once every two or three months. It was a chore for me, my feelings were 'I thought you had a girlfriend?' A single Mom friend kissed me one afternoon. I was surprised but I let her kiss me again. We became lovers, honeymoon sex lasted for months. I did not miss my husband, he had a girlfriend so he had all the sex he wanted.

It was a long introduction to that lesbian acknowledgement. In spite of months of lesbian sex I still considered myself straight. Accepting that I was, and am, a lesbian was a big p!ll to swallow. My husband agreed, he claims to have known since before we got married. Five years, two children, married with girlfriends. I don't want a divorce, he says he can't afford a divorce, my girlfriend is happy not having to support me, his girlfriend threatens to leave him unless he divorces me, but she can't leave, she's hooked. They have been together since before we got married.

If he makes a mistake and comes to my room, I move over and let him in.