My husband and me were both virgins when we got married. I think we had all the normal feelings, but in our relgion chastity is important. So before we were married the furthest we ever went was rubbing through clothes. Which we did alot and I actually enjoyed. Like I say, I think I have all of the normal feelings.

But I just don't like full blown sex. I love my husband, and I let him pleasure himself with my body because of that. But I'm just not into it. It starts out nice enough, with the kissing and the fondling and the nuzzling. It even feels good when he first - well - enters me. It starts out nice & gentle & loving and I like that.

But no matter how long that lasts and no matter how much I like it up until then, at some point it becomes bestial humping. I suppose he just can't help it. But all I can picture when it gets to that stage is a giant dog humping my leg.

Except he's not humping my leg. He is pounding himself inside of my body while he grunts like a pig. And after he's done that for a minute or two he gives up a great big moan and stiffens up and squirts a bunch of his juices way up deep inside of my body.

As far back as I can remember, I've hated people invading my personal space. And even though I love him and want to please him and have his children, all I can think about is that I've got this man invading my space and pouring himself right into my own body. Creeps me out even typing this.

So I love my husband, and I don't think he can help turning into an animal towards the end. I guess that is just the way guys are.

What's the deal? I enjoy the intimacy and the petting and even the start of the real deal. But when he loses it and starts in with the mindless primal humping and then squirts stuff into my body I can't help but feeling used. I try not to be bitchy about it, but I can't wait to get to the bathroom and clean up. If I can I usually take a bath.

I don't have any feelings for girls, but I'm not at all into this either. Is there something wrong with me?