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Anything Goes
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Gender Neutral / 33
Somewhere In My Life I Lost The Ability To Make A Romantic Connection
I am a Mexican national educated in the US. When I went to college on a student visa I worked hard to find a company to hire me after graduation and get my papers. Returning to Mexico was my worst nightmare. I was scheduled to graduate in 2012 without a job. In order to stay my only option was to get married. I had a classmate, nice, quiet, friendly. He agreed to marry me and help me get my papers.
One night he knocked on my room and told me it was time for me to show my appreciation. The whole thing took five minutes, but the consequences last a lifetime. He made sure I would pass the test that my marriage was legitimate, I was seven months pregnant for my interview.
I didn't expect that I would feel so deeply for my son. He became the center in my life. When I got my residency I never mentioned the divorce we had agreed to. I let him make me pregnant again. He told me I had to at least show emotion. It is not part of who I am. He didn't ask for the divorce.
2022 is behind me, I've been married for more than ten years now. I have my citizenship and two children. I'm still married. My husband has his life, I have never held him back. I don't love him. I can't build up that kind of emotion. I do love my children. I think.
One night he knocked on my room and told me it was time for me to show my appreciation. The whole thing took five minutes, but the consequences last a lifetime. He made sure I would pass the test that my marriage was legitimate, I was seven months pregnant for my interview.
I didn't expect that I would feel so deeply for my son. He became the center in my life. When I got my residency I never mentioned the divorce we had agreed to. I let him make me pregnant again. He told me I had to at least show emotion. It is not part of who I am. He didn't ask for the divorce.
2022 is behind me, I've been married for more than ten years now. I have my citizenship and two children. I'm still married. My husband has his life, I have never held him back. I don't love him. I can't build up that kind of emotion. I do love my children. I think.
