Pent Up Sexual Frustrations

First of all I come here to read confessions or stories of lesbian sex, and of girls put under the control of a man. I stopped looking at porn and became addicted to reading narratives which gives me time to masturbate. I have been a r**e enthusiast since I was around twelve and a lesbian voyeur since around fifteen. The first lesbian sex I saw live was between our maid and her lover. I had figured out how to get out of my window onto the roof and sneak over to the side of the house with the garage apartment where the maid lived and watch her get naked and walk around. I saw her lover get on her knees and lick her, and then kiss with her before falling on the bed to have sex. I was fifteen. I wore out my clit that night.

My grandmother was an avid reader of romance novels and she preferred the novels of women being the objects of conquest by men. I also found r**e novels in her closet, she liked that too. I went to sleep at night dreaming of being kidnapped and r**ed by some man driving through. My grandmother bought me my first dildo when I turned 13, and she showed me how to use it. She liked penetrating me with it, slowly. She would tell me to close my eyes and dream about how good it feels and think about some man while she used the dildo with me. I tended to dream about the man at the gas station. She taught me how to put a condom on a penis using the dildo, not that I would have time for that, but I should know how.

My first live sex, physical, was with another girl. Her name is Amber and she is a little slut and will let anything fuck her. We played boy girl sex and she always played the boy. We had the dildo to use so it was like having a boy on me, except that it was a dildo. Truthfully I never imagined she was a boy, I liked that she had boobs and her pussy and clit which I loved to kiss and lick and did it every time we had sex in my room. She joined me on the roof a couple of times when our maid's lover came to see her.

I went through a phase of watching porn, I identified with the girl getting a cock fucked in her, and always the girl being made love to when I watched lesbian porn. I never imagined myself as the aggressor or initiator. I was made for fucking, so fuck me.

I have had sex with a variety of men, but prefer to have sex with a woman. I enjoy reading about r**e and kidnapping but am deathly afraid that it could happen to me. I enjoy reading real life confessions of first time lesbians. There is a man who has sex with me pretty often, he's spread me open face down and rubbed my butt like he is going to fuck me, but he never does, he slips his cock in me and fucks me normally. But, there is always the chance that he carries through with his threat. I think of my grandmother with the dildo and the man at the gas station when he's fucking me. It's not fair to him, but I don't tell him what I'm thinking.

I'm a half slut, or I'm pretty slutty. I don't care if he sees me having sex with a girl, but I would never half sex with a man around him. I know he's the boss of me. I've been known to go commando when I go out with him, and for New Year's Eve I went with a girl and we kissed at midnight, before he took us home to fuck us. I don't think of children or even of being a housewife. I dream of a girlfriend living with me and we take care of his house for him.