I Cannot Control My Feelings.

I have been married 8 years. We have known each other all our lives. Church, school, and many life events together. I’m lucky to have such a good husband. He covers all things I could expect in a marriage. All of this and I have no reason to be having sex with a worker at our hospital. Society doesn’t understand we have instinct to be attractived to someone while being totally in love with a spouse. My fling is everything expected for a very skilled sex partner. He is tall, very fit, perfectly endowed, clean, and so adorable. He is single for a reason. He has flings with us woman. He doesn’t want marriage.
I was physically attracted to him anytime I got around him. He is always nice ,sweet and charming. His personality pulled me to giving myself to him. I could tell he was putting the flirt on me and I loved it. He had been taking the opportunity to walk with me often and started spending extra time with me. He started getting personal with questions. One day he told me I was probably the most attractive lady at work. I replied I wished my breast was bigger. He said he would be the judge. He took me to unused part of hospital. He slowly undressed me and fondled and suck my nipples. I was caught up in the moment and didn’t realize he had me unclothed and he was naked. We lay down on a pad and he worked me then started having sex with me. I was in the twilight zone. He cum inside me and stayed hard and cum again after we had sex for most of thirty minutes. He brags how he loves sex with me because I can take all of him and I’m always hot. He has me usually about once a week. With him we may be standing, bent over, in his truck, or at my house. Unless a woman has sex with a very skilled sex partner they cannot understand the reason someone like me cheats. He also has sex with other wives. He doesn’t want drama of a marriage, just sex with no attachment. My fling man screws me, I do the screwing with my husband.
My husband Is ready to start a family. This is the only time my cheating started to trouble me. I know I would let my lover get me pregnant because I fantasize this. I know he would put the sperm deep. The orgasms I have when he cums inside me are incredible. I shared my plans to get pregnant. He shared that a worker in our hospital is pregnant by him now. I pass her several times a day and look at her pregnant belly. I so want to have his baby and not my husbands.
I started concealing with our work councilor. She is trying hard to get me to consider what I’m considering. At this time I decided to give both the opportunity and whichever impregnates me is ok. Most likely I would get pregnant by my husband because we have sex very often. I enjoy my life so much now and dread the change children may cause. My husband really wants children so I hope this goes well.