My Wife Found Out

I spent the first 5 years of my sex life having sex with other guys. It started when I was 15 and only ended with my first girlfriend after college, she is now my wife. She had 18 lovers before me, and admitted anything she did. I thought it was very sexy. I had 23 lovers, but mine were all other guys. It started with me sucking, and after a few months getting fucked in the backseat of my friends car. I did mostly get fucked, and sucked but several did suck me back or jack me during the time they were fucking me. I did flip and fuck two men who were switch. I liked the feeling a lot but also liked the feeling of having a cock inside my mouth or my ass.

My wife never knew, she assumed that my past lovers were girls and women. One of my friends met us at a store and the three of us went for a drink. During that time he asked how it ended with "Derek", that with other comments he made, and saying things she found out. Probably the worst was when it was obvious I was the bottom, he commented that he was with me more than his girlfriend, as I couldn't get knocked up.

Thankfully; she kept quite during the drinks and in the car asked if there was something I wanted to tell her. At home in our bedroom I admitted I was having gay sex until I met her. Now she knows, she's even asked how I could like having sex with her, even in her butt, when obviously I was the one getting fucked and sucking in my gay life.

I am so embarrassed, I don't know where it's going from here. I never wanted her to know about it. Mainly; though I do love the feeling of getting fucked, I started gay sex as it was the most available to me at that age. Not because I was that attracted to guys. I was attracted to girls, just couldn't date as I couldn't drive yet, and by that time it came around I was already getting regularly fucked and filled. She accepted it but is not pleased. She says we have more talking to do before we even think about having sex.