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Anything Goes
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Gay Male / 74
Can’t Believe It
Today I was watching porn jerking off to gay porn and I came to a realization that made me question my whole existence and why I’m even gay if I feel so disgusted, repulsed and sick by the thoughts that came into my mind.
Years back when I was new to Grindr I was chatting with guys on there. Began to chat with a young guy 18 and the conversation turned dark. He told he how he was groomed from and used from the age of 11 by a guy who he met on his way back home from school. He said it started by curiosity of what gay was, sense the guy he met mentioned he was gay. Through the conversation he told me lots of details about how it all started. How he would wait in the back room while the guy he met and friends would drink and take turns on him. The groomer shows him what he needed to do. He also told me a story of how he was tied to a bed while a man with a nine inch penis took him. He mentioned he’s relationship with his family was destroyed at the time we were talking. Told me about other he who had also been used.
Remember being repulsed and shocked by the whole conversation. He looked super young in the picture he sent and being new to Grindr and cautious about people at the time we lost chat on.
Today I’m watching Mormon Boyz’s Austin Young and Legrand Wolf got at it in a porn clip and the image of that 18 year old and the story he told me flash into my mind. About threw up when my brain connected the story and I realized Austin Young was the 18 year old telling me the story and Legrand Wolf of Mormon Boyz is the man with the nine inch penis who used him while he was tied to the bed when he was being groomed and used. Holy good god this is disturbing.
Looking super young myself and new to the gay world I heard hundreds of stories of this type. I quickly realized these victims had made a connection with the perpetrators and I better not speak ill of them because they would shut down. I’m disgusted with this deplorable human behavior and will not ever be about it. I don’t care what has happened to me or the lifestyle I have lived (very destructive).
I might be wrong about this, I have great memories though and the image I remember is exactly what Austin Young from Mormon boyz looks like.
Can’t believe my thoughts right now. I don’t live in the state anymore… I have heard lots of this type of stories being in the gay community from many different people.
I don’t know if being gay is event the correct thing for me anymore. I am repulsed by the damage to a human that occurs when things like that story happen.
I already sometimes feel like a pervert watching gay porn. Realizing these actors have a long history made me sick.
God help us all. The world is a messed up place.
Years back when I was new to Grindr I was chatting with guys on there. Began to chat with a young guy 18 and the conversation turned dark. He told he how he was groomed from and used from the age of 11 by a guy who he met on his way back home from school. He said it started by curiosity of what gay was, sense the guy he met mentioned he was gay. Through the conversation he told me lots of details about how it all started. How he would wait in the back room while the guy he met and friends would drink and take turns on him. The groomer shows him what he needed to do. He also told me a story of how he was tied to a bed while a man with a nine inch penis took him. He mentioned he’s relationship with his family was destroyed at the time we were talking. Told me about other he who had also been used.
Remember being repulsed and shocked by the whole conversation. He looked super young in the picture he sent and being new to Grindr and cautious about people at the time we lost chat on.
Today I’m watching Mormon Boyz’s Austin Young and Legrand Wolf got at it in a porn clip and the image of that 18 year old and the story he told me flash into my mind. About threw up when my brain connected the story and I realized Austin Young was the 18 year old telling me the story and Legrand Wolf of Mormon Boyz is the man with the nine inch penis who used him while he was tied to the bed when he was being groomed and used. Holy good god this is disturbing.
Looking super young myself and new to the gay world I heard hundreds of stories of this type. I quickly realized these victims had made a connection with the perpetrators and I better not speak ill of them because they would shut down. I’m disgusted with this deplorable human behavior and will not ever be about it. I don’t care what has happened to me or the lifestyle I have lived (very destructive).
I might be wrong about this, I have great memories though and the image I remember is exactly what Austin Young from Mormon boyz looks like.
Can’t believe my thoughts right now. I don’t live in the state anymore… I have heard lots of this type of stories being in the gay community from many different people.
I don’t know if being gay is event the correct thing for me anymore. I am repulsed by the damage to a human that occurs when things like that story happen.
I already sometimes feel like a pervert watching gay porn. Realizing these actors have a long history made me sick.
God help us all. The world is a messed up place.
