I'm Going Crazy, I Need Relief For My Obsession

Things have gotten pretty serious lately. I find myself enjoying gay porn, particularly bareback porn, I'm the guy on the bottom. I want to suck cock so bad it hurts. I met a guy a few weeks back at the post office of all places, but we talked about cars which I know a lot about, and I ended up at his place sucking his cock while the game was on. I really enjoyed that, I wish he had been interested in giving me a good hard fuck.

I went to a party for a friend turning sixty. I looked around at the old bags, all of them totally unaware that their men are thinking of anything but them, whether it's the new clerk in risk management, or their husbands are like me gravitating over to full on gay sex and looking for a fuck buddy.

I have a friend from days gone by but he's not my type, to much of an accountant type. I'm attracted to blue collar types, the proverbial truck driver or plumber. Hell, I'll suck cock when he's driving, or suck cock when he's fixing the leaking faucet. I did suck a yard man the other day, this was a couple of weeks back. A guy about fifty who works for the city. He's from Honduras, brown and smooth and has a nice sized cock, nice to look at, nice to manhandle, nice to put in your mouth. He is totally gay which is what scares me, he wants an out an out relationship which I can't handle.

One more and I'll let you go. There is an Italian restaurant that I go to for lunch. I go late, around 1 after the lunch crowd eases out. They have a waiter, Guillermo. He's my age, he crossed the border back in the 80s. I really can see myself making out with him, kissing, standing naked, feeling our cocks rub against each other. I see myself going down on my knees to service his cock with a blowjob, but not to completion. I see myself on the bed on my hands and knees. I let him lube me up with his fingers, and then I feel his cock go in and he starts to fuck me. That's what I want, and if I could get Guillermo to see it my way, so much the better.

I'm singing off, I've said too much, I watched a gay video of two men kissing, blowjobs and fucking while I listened to my sister complain about her husband.