My Rape Fantasy

My parents were into protecting the environment, even before it became as fashionable as it is these days. When I was in my early teens we watched a film called ‘No Blade Of Grass’ it’s an old film from the early 1970s. It’s about man destroying his environment, and as a result a virus starts destroying crops and grass. I wouldn’t recommend it!

There was one scene however, when the family is running away from the city following the break down of law and order. The mother and the daughter were kidnapped by hells angels and r**ed. I was shocked by the scene as it’s quite graphic. This was also the first time I ever creamed myself.

I couldn’t get the scene out of my head. That night I left on my underwear under my nightwear and imagined it being ripped off by a hells Angel. I used my brush and had my first ever proper orgasm.

Years later I was followed in a park by a man after attending a party. Thankfully, nothing happened. In bed though I had a vivid fantasy about being r**ed in the bushes. I had multiple orgasms. I even slapped my own face.

In my early 20s I had my only one night stand. I’d met this older guy in a club and ended up in the back of his car!! My fantasy triggered, and it was the most amazing sex I’d ever had. The guy must of thought I was a total slut.

When I’m alone, my preference being in hotel rooms when I’m away with work, I fantasise a rapist breaks in to my hotel room. These can get very graphic. I stayed in a serviced apartment once and even got a knife and cut my own underwear off. I then held the knife to my throat whilst I used my Rampant Rabbit. This was the first time I’d ever squirted during orgasm.

I have included my fantasy into my sex life with my partner. I love being tied up and fucked. He once forced anal sex during one of these sessions, another first. Although I didn’t like it, as part of the r**e fantasy it drove me wild.

I don’t know why I developed this fetish, however, I know it’s common. Maybe it’s the old cavewoman being taken by a caveman thing. My best friend has also has the same fantasy, although it’s not as pronounced as mine.

I watched Jodie Foster in the Accused and that gang r**e scene blew my mind. I even bought the DVD and would watch it on my own, sometimes rein-acting the scene.

I used to be ashamed of my dark fetish, but the older I’ve got I’ve learned to embrace and enjoy it. I don’t doubt being r**ed would be horrible and life changing. My fantasy thought is safe and has led to some of the most intense orgasms I’ve ever had.