It Was Easier To Go Gay

I am working out of the US for 2 years. I was alone, and tried to find a girlfriend but to no avail. I'm not the most masculine man I guess, I'm short at 5ft. 9in, thin weighing 140lbs, I have long brown hair and am only about 5 inches when hard.

I went to one of the hookers in the windows, did that, then the two I'd seen weren't around one night, I went to another. The other was a transgurl. She was really pretty, cute, tall and thin, and had a small cock or clit as she called it. I got sucked hard and when I was ready she asked how I wanted her. I opted to have her on her belly and I got on top of her and fucked her sissy hole. I did it with another guy in my mid teens but only girls and women after I was about 17.

After I fucked the transgurl, she was getting off her shift and asked if I wanted to get a drink with her. I went with her to a CD-trans-gay bar. I got a little drunk, and she and I would dance and go back for drinks. We were both tipsy. A very nice looking guy, tall, dark hair came up to us and asked me to dance. My Tgurl encouraged me and soon I was dancing with several men, on slow dances I was actually getting my nipples sucked on the dancefloor and having hands slipped down the back of my pants. A guy who knew my new friend came up and asked if he could go back to her place with both of us. I agreed when she asked.

We all stripped, her in some lingerie, and the guy fucked her. My friend put me in some panties and a matching bra with garter and stockings and I fucked her while the guy watched. He was hard again and this time lubed me and fucked me. After he left, my friend gave me 100 Euro for my half of the money he paid. I didn't realize it was for pay, not only was I dressed in womens undies, I had just been paid for a man to fuck me. I did it a few more times with her, and she started helping me dress and make up. I was, like she, very passable as a woman. We would openly go out in public, drinks, coffee, dinners, lunches, shopping as two women. Sometimes as two transgurls, sometimes even not letting anyone know and acting like two lesbian women.

I was on my own one evening at a bar and I let a man take me back to his place to have sex. He fucked me three times with a very large cock, I was walking a little gingerly back to my place. I let a few other men have sex with me, my mouth - I swallow - and my now "sissypussy". Soon I realized that I could have sex, as a gurl. I was actually liking the feeling of a man fucking me. I was cumming internally in my lower belly, my muscles would sort of cramp up and it felt like an orgasm without ejaculating. After a few months it would sometimes ejaculate when I'd experience the gurl orgasms. I have another year to go here, and whenever I'm not working I'm a woman. I have sex as a woman, I live as a woman and I let me fuck me like a woman. I have also done a few more duos with my transgurl hooker friend. I confess I did take her shift twice when she was sick, in the window entertaining men as they paid for my body.

I don't know if I'm gay, if I'm TG or what. Here and now though, I'm dressing and acting and having sex like a woman and I like it. I know back home around my family this won't fly, I'll have to go back to being the man and having a girlfriend and later wife.