Realization

It was 30 years ago and I had left home at 20 to move to a large city. In the first few months I found a retail job and an apartment as I got oriented to the place.

I had started going to singles bars to meet women with little success. As a teenage male I had lost my virginity back home to an older woman neighbor in her 50's. I was comfortable with older folks.

I read a lot and regularly went to a local library to borrow books. In my exploration of the shelved one day I came across The joy of gay sex with drawings of sex acts and cocks. Looking at the drawings aroused me surprisingly and I felt an erection in my pants. I was too embarrassed to borrow the book and instead browsed through it when I went there.

One afternoon at the library looking at the gay book when I noticed an older gent in his 60's standing nearby. He noticed the cover and smiled at me. I was nervous and stood there then put the book back on the shelf. He whispered in my ear that he could sign the book out and I could look at it in his car. I felt scared of my arousal as my erection was stiff in my pants as I thought what may happen if I went with him. I stood there hesitantly then the horny thoughts took over. I leaned over and whispered okay. In his ear. He beckoned me to follow him as he signed out the book. I followed at a distance and met him outside near his car. He had silver hair stocky build and a matching moustache with glasses. He got in the car and opened the door for me. I got in and he drove us to a quiet abandoned warehouse area and parked on a side road. He got the book out and passed it to me. As I looked at the pictures I felt his hand on my leg moving up my thigh. My horniness intensified as his hand found my crotch and fondled my bulge. His moustached mouth found my mouth and his tongue probed my lips. This excited me more and my mouth opened to receive his tongue. We kissed deeply as he unzipped my jeans and pulled down my briefs. He caressed my stiff cock as we kissed. Later he bent down and engulfed my cock with his mouth. He sucked me knowingly taking my cock fully in after kissing the head of it. I came hard and fast as he blew me. He made sure he took all my seed and sucked it all down. I leaned back as he told me how much he enjoyed sucking me. He took his own cock out and guided my hand onto it. I masturbated him gently into a tissue he provided. Jerking him off made me hard again and this time he masturbated me as well. After he was done he kissed me before lighting up a cigarette. I took a deep drag and realized this sex was even more exciting than with the older woman back home. He drove me home and this was the beginning of a lengthy 3 year affair with him with full intercourse both ways,regular oral and weekend sleepovers. The affair ended when I was transferred to another city. Since then I have had several long term affairs with older gay men and 1 woman. The gay sex arouses me the most.