My Wife’s Diary

I met my wife when she was 19, we married three years later. Neither of us were virgins, but decided not to have the ‘the numbers talk’

My mother in law died of COVID last year and we had to sell the house. She was a lovely lady but hoarded stuff, it took three months to clear the house!

I was going through boxes in the attic when I found a box of my wife’s childhood diaries. I would never read her adult diaries but had a look at these. They started when she was nine years old. She recorded every detail of her day. Subjects learned at school, school gossip, conversations with parents, even what she had for breakfast, lunch and dinner! They were cute, and gave an insight into her as a child and periods in time.

The diaries went through to 18 years old age. From early teens I started to read sexual stuff!! The first person to finger her was her female best friend. The first boy to touch her was Simon who was fourteen. She then had a load of boyfriends from fourteen to sixteen. The sexual details become more and more salacious. She was licked out for the first time and sucked a dick at fourteen. She liked oral sex. Virginity went at fifteen, I wanked reading that diary entry. She went into great detail describing It. It happened in the back of a car; at the end of the diary entry my wife was shocked to discover that the guy who had just fucked her was twenty five years old. She enjoyed it though.

Then the names started piling up!!! On one page towards the end of the last diary she wrote that she was getting worried about the number of boys she had ‘slept with’ and didn’t want to get to the stage she couldn’t remember them all. The next page of her diary had this list;


Paul, Mike, Martin, Harry, Phil, Tony x 2, Nathan, Jonathon, Steve x2, Jonny, Martin, Rob, Mohammed, David, Joe, K, Drew, and Alex.

I’m assuming Tony & Steve x 2 means there were two boys with that name rather than she did it twice with them. That means by 18 she’s had sex with 20 boys and men. Although I’d never given it much thought, I’d assumed at most six, probably because that was my number before I met her.

I was shocked, turned on, partly disgusted, Randy as hell. a Strange myriad of emotions presented themselves. Some of the detail was very sexy. How big their penis was, if she had an orgasm etc I spent an afternoon scan reading her diaries. I learned that sex entries had a tick next to the date! There were loads of ticks; especially at weekends!!

My confession is both that I read these diaries, which I guess was wrong, but also I got off on reading the sex parts. I know she’s my wife, but sone of these diary entries I was wanking over were when she was underaged. I’m not sure if that makes me the horrible ‘P’ word???

I’ve also kept the diaries and hid them in the garage. I’ve fucked her into tomorrow after reading some of them, she has even asked what had gotten into me.

It’s a betrayal and would damage my marriage if I told her. We had agreed not to disclose our number as it wasn’t important. I wonder now though if she orchestrated that agreement due to the relatively high number for her age? It’s been both a blessing and a curse knowing the intimate details of her sec life before me.