Tulip. (last Bit)

beforenher work, and once she accused me of pushing, pushing myself on her. I know shes right, i did. I couldnt stop myself. But we can't control how these things go and I genuinely fell deeply in love with her. I think of her ALL the time. Its totally bonkers but as the married guy i think i've felt far more jealous of her occasional fucks withnother guys than she did of the fact that im married .
So what next? My wife doesnt deserve this. And yet i wonder how life might be if i were with the Tulip