Regretful Behavior

I had lunch with a friend and I met a guy. He followed up, we went out, he pushed and got sex. I have deep regrets, I am embarrassed, I wish it never happened. So far I have not developed any symptoms or received a positive diagnoses for HIV, Herpes, or other forms of STD. But I'm not in the clear. I have to be tested for another several months.

In addition to my self respect, I lost my virginity. Maybe past due.

I don't want sympathy, understanding maybe. I don't agree that it was something that just had to happen. It wasn't 'forced', more of being coerced. Watch yourself, pay attention, don't get in cars with strangers, keep your pants on, and take birth control. Something I'm also worried about.