I Want To Meet Up With A Man Who Trips All My Desires

I've thought about this for a long time. I found this site by accident and have been a fan for a while. I like reading about similar things that happened to me, basically being used by a man growing up. I've made peace with my history, but it never leaves my mind. I masturbate to it. And I have a video to relive the experience.

My family owns a rental property on the beach. That year after the summer season, I was a high school senior, my father asked me to drive down a blower that the aircon people needed to install. I had to use the pickup because it was too big for a car. The drive is normally around three and half hours, so there and back is a seven hour trip. I couldn't find anyone to make the trip with me.

I got to the house around 11, the aircon man was there and pissed because I was late. He cussed me out and I had to help him unload and help him carry it in, and work with him to get it up into the attic. He had me get on the ladder and pass stuff up into the attic to finish the install. He grabbed my ass 'like that don't you', and then 'how about your balls' and grabbed my balls. 'Why don't you give me some of that sweet ass' and he grabbed my hips and stuck his face in my ass. 'I think you're going to like this boy' and he pulled me down from the ladder and tossed me on the bed.

He was a big man, weighed a lot, and he was strong. He got my pants down and grabbed my dick and put it in his mouth. He knocked my shoes off and pulled my pants completely off.

'I'm getting to your ass, but first you're going to suck my cock'. And with that he took off his pants and grabbed me by the hair and shoved his cock in my face. I kept my mouth shut for a moment and when I had to breathe I made the mistake of opening my mouth and he put his cock in my mouth and I opened up so he could get it in sufficiently to start face fucking me.

I hadn't noticed that I had cum, and my dick was dripping. He licked it up, and turned me over and spit into my ass crack and rubbed my asshole and pile drove his cock straight into me. I didn't see him, I was on my face and while he fucked me he took a video of it. When he finished and I turned around he got my face and scanned down to my butt already dripping cum.

He put me back to work and took me to lunch and after lunch he held me against the bedroom wall and kissed me on the mouth. He told me he owned me now and had me get down on my knees and unzip and release his cock and suck him and he shot video of me with his cock in my mouth. After he finished installing the blower in the attic he had me lay down for him and he fucked me again before I went home. He sent me the videos so I could remember that he owned me.

For the rest of my high school I volunteered for any trip down to the beach. I went to see him, and mostly we had sex at his place, a trailer in the permanent resident trailer park. Sometimes we had sex at the house. He liked to kiss me which was fine with me, and he liked having oral sex, sixty nine, and then fucking me before I went home. I had lube that he told me to buy, and he either lubed me up himself or had me lube for him. We shot lots of video, selfies kissing and stuff, cock sucking, fucking, or just plain naked laying on the bed waiting for him.

I am now living on the opposite coast and he has moved on down to Florida and we stay in touch but haven't seen each other in years. I play the videos and masturbate. I dream of those days and masturbate. I look at other men and ask myself. I really want to have sex with a man again. Around here the gay men are obvious, too obvious. What I'm looking for is not obvious. A man I want to kiss with and who I want to suck, the image of that man is the man that owned me in high school. That's the type of man I'm attracted to.