Cruising

I was newly divorced in the early 90's and was struggling with gay desires. Began buying gay porn videos and masturbating to them. I had not been with a man yet and was 32 at the time but was checking out men and their bulges constantly.

My new apartment bordered on a wooded park. I noticed throughout the day and especially the evenings I noticed men strolling towards the entrance and disappearing into the woods. I realized many of them were likely cruising looking for sex with other men.

I was losing my inhibitions and the pull of the park was too much. The first evening I went there I will never forget. It was a warm summer evening and I wore tight denim shorts t-shirt and some sexy black underwear I had bought. I walked into the woods noticing all sorts of men some alone some paired up. I stood and watched men receiving oral,getting fucked or masturbated and became increasingly horny and aroused.

As I watched this younger 20 ish guy on his knees sucking this older man over 60 my cock strained in my underwear. A man beside me commented how hot this was. I turned and looked at him. He was a plain looking guy around 50 with slicked back hair and skinny but muscular build. He had his cock out and was stroking it. My eyes fixated on his stiff cut cock. It was around my size about 6 inches but had a bigger mushroom head on it. I took my hard cock out and almost immediately the guy beside me moved close and began fondling me. It felt real good and I could feel myself giving in to my gay desires. The guy then dropped onto his knees like the younger guy I was watching and took my cock in his mouth. I could not last long and soon blasted my load in the cocksucker's mouth. He stood up and told me he loved taking my load. He suggested we walk around and watch others. I realized he really had the hots for me and went with him. For the next 2 hours we watched all sorts of men having sex. I was rock hard again. He took me to a secluded spot and told me it was my turn to taste cock. I got on my knees and kissed the sexy head of his cock. Loved how it looked and felt between my lips. I took his cock in and began worshipping it. He moaned and it took him awhile to cum. Finally he squirted in my mouth and I tasted my first load. He lit up a cigarette and passed it to me. We smoked together and he told me I was special and he asked me if I wanted to meet him regularly in the park. I agreed and we began meeting there for sex regularly and watching other men. By the end of the summer I realized we had become a couple as he was coming over to my place to share my bed as well. We got into mutual fucking,kissing rimming the whole nine yards. We were lovers for 15 years until cancer took him. That summer was the start of my gay life.