Hurting Sitting Staring At My Husband's Empty Seat At My Table

In high school I was a loaner afflicted with severe acne. After medication, and a change in climate I cleared up and went to college. I became involved with another girl in a pretend lesbian relationship. She is a lesbian, me not so much. I met a man at work, he put a fence around me and I got married last summer.

But I've cheated on my husband with my college girlfriend. I tried, I said no, but my resolve wasn't strong enough. My husband took it badly and he moved out over Thanksgiving.

I'm hurting so badly, I was a fool, and I don't think I can live with the consequences.