Giving Him What He Deserves

So for starters i've always been not very masculine like weak girly looking and sensitive. I used to be bullied as a kid for not being as tough or physically capable as my friends but that's all behind me now... I am 5'6, smooth and soft body and for a long time all of these being my insecurities along with having girly features. But now i am close friends with some guys who accept me as one of them.

Except they often comment on how they would fuck me if i was a girl, that i should have been born a girl, that with my slightly long hair all i need is some girly outfit and they could not tell the difference. It's cool because they're always there for me and never let me down. I don't take what they say badly.. in fact from them it feels sorta nice. Like they're clumsily complimenting me.

Then there's this guy.. let's call him John. He always complains how his gf never gives him head and often follows up with something like "Hey (me) why don't you suck me off instead?" Or "(me) could do it. He passes off easily as my gf". But the boys just laugh it off jokingly calling him gay. Except that the more they kept saying that....the more i've been thinking about it and maybe it would feel nice to suck my best friend's cock.

One friday late afternoon, we were all hanging out at John's place like usual and at some point it was just us 2 when the rest left. I usually stayed till later because i lived close to his place. We were just hanging out in his room just sort of taking turns playing GTA V until he got too absorbed in his conversation with his gf. Then came the usual complaint. But this time... With my heart racing idk what came over me but i offered to give John head. I said "if you really want a blowjob from me...i can do it". He started laughing and telling me he was joking but his laugh stopped as he realized i was serious and came close to him. At this point i was checking out his crotch for any reactions but i decided to just put my hand on it and to feel it directly. And there was a huge boner hiding in his pants it was honestly shocking. He didn't resist. "I'll suck your cock anytime you want me to, John..." I whispered to him. He wasted no time in pulling me off the bed, gently pushing me down on my knees and pulling down his pants. From there i did not hesitate to slowly take him in my mouth, kissing it, licking it all over, enveloping the tip and more and more of the shaft until it hit my gag reflex, at which point he asked if i was ok with such concern for me. That was so cute. It almost felt like he was treating me like a girl. But i did my best, getting deeper and fighting my gag reflex, giving him the greatest pleasure he could feel while my own boner was straining in my pants, and i could feel it wet from my precum. I kept on swallowing his cock until he couldn't hold it in anymore and grabbed my head to thrust deep and cum down my throat. Needless to say, i was coughing and gagging hard but i did my best to endure it. When he pulled out he caressed my cheek as i stared up at him and realized i really enjoy pleasuring John.

This was a month ago. I've been regularly giving him blowjobs in secret but we're also working towards having sex... Like John fucking my butt. It's really embarrassing but i can't deny that each time we were alone together, i fell a bit more for John. I only want him now and he treats me so well. I love you John. I wish we could stay together forever. I'll give you head as much as you want ❤️