Moving On To Something Different And Enjoying The Journey

As time goes by, especially since the shutdown of society during the COVID crisis I have become aware, or rather more aware, of many more men like me. During the long months of COVID, when I was home alone I turned to the internet for distraction and entertainment. I found that I liked watching clips of men kissing, Pictures of naked men, naturists men. Penis pictures. Men having sex with each other. And always, all the time, I identified with the bottom. I was convinced I wanted to try.

I was on a social media dating sight for men and I came across the profile of a man I thought to be a lot like me. Older, interested in starting something, and after getting to the point of sharing emails, we shared phone numbers. As we were both COVID free and free of any other communicable diseases we agreed to meet. I gave him my address and the pass codes into our complex and that afternoon he showed up.

It was the first time for both of us. We talked a lot, about many things. It was awkward and I decided to display some of the videos I had liked, one of two older men kissing. We watched without speaking. I leaned over and put my hand in his lap. I grabbed his dick and his dick answered. I undid his pants and took his dick in my hand. The very first time I had ever grabbed a dick and put his dick in my mouth. The scene evolved while the video played, the men on the screen had moved onto being naked in bed, and I got naked and helped him out of his clothes and we were both naked and I told him I wanted to hug.

We hugged and kissed, I really liked kissing with him, hugged tight and felt our bodies together, standing in the living room kissing naked with the tv in the background and two men having sex. I convinced him to take my dick and put it in his mouth and we were soon in my room naked on the bed, kissing and caressing each other's bodies. Hunger had set in and we were holding each other's dicks and switching from kissing to sucking dick and I told him I wanted him to fuck me, do what he had to do.

His hunger was now on and we positioned ourselves, I took the bottom position and he got behind me and he managed to penetrate enough. We switched into a missionary face to face position and I held his dick guiding it where I wanted it. To me it wasn't pain, it was the most incredible feeling as he penetrated further and further in, looking up at him while he fucked me. He came, and I felt so good that he came.

After we cleaned up, you have to clean up, I knew that from reading a lot about it, we showered and I sucked his dick in the shower. I had a lot of kissing to do, I just wanted to feel his lips on mine so we kissed some more, still naked on the bed. He jerked me off with his hand and we lay there in Nirvana.

Unfortunately he was overcome with guilt and didn't return. But for me it was breaking a barrier that somehow I had always wanted but was never willing to follow. I share my profile on an adult gay sight and from time to time I find a man to get together with. I keep condoms and lubricants handy in case it moves in that way. I want to be with a man who wants to be naked with me, to just kiss and caress, to pinch nipples, to hold a hard dick in my hand. I love to give blowjobs and feel a man's dick in my hand as he cums in my mouth. I've swallowed and tasted enough to know I like it.

I have no emotional attachment to any of this. It is an evolution as I have left sex with women behind.