I Want More

I'm in a very happy, permanent, monogamous relationship with a woman. We are both bisexual and have toyed around with the idea of a threesome, regardless of the gender that joins us. We've thought and talked more about a male joining us, which is perfectly fine with me. I do wish that we would go though with either gender because I want to be polysexual while maintaining a monogamous romantic relationship. I only want my current partner as my life partner. I don't want to add someone else's feelings into the mix unless those feelings are strictly sexual. I also want to be able to do sexual stuff with whoever I want, whenever I want, as long as we communicate who, when, where, why, how long, and discuss details with each other when we fuck later that night or that week. I want her to have free sexual range as much as I want it. I want videos sent to me of her getting her back blown out, of another man's cock being rammed down her throat, some other man's cum leaking out of her pussy. I want to hear how the guy liked it. I want to see a woman going down on her or her going down on another woman, getting finger fucked, scissoring, using a strap-on or getting fucked with one. And I want to hear all the details while I'm getting ready to dump my cum in her. I want to be able to tell her all my sex adventures with other people and send her the same shit. I have a few people in mind that I want to fuck that I feel would be down for either a 1 on 1 or a three-way and even a few couples that I want to have a 4 way with. I just don't know how to approach the couples, nor the single people. I want to be more sexually adventurous and go cum crazy, suck a few cocks, try getting fucked, (I think I'm vers but I've never had a dick in me) fuck a few pussies that I've never gotten the chance to and maybe revisit a couple that I have. Fufill some dirty fantasies that I've had about a couple of my female friends and my partners friends. I just want the freedom but as soon as it comes to sexual stuff actually happening, she backs down and says that she doesn't know if she wants to go through with it, but seems so fond of the idea beforehand. Fuck, I just want to fuck freely.