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My Family
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Bi-Sexual Female / 62
The Truth Is Here We Just Don't Like It.
It wasn't my choice but my sex education began just after my first holy communion..
I knew it was wrong but I would be lying to say it wasn't enjoyable at the time and I certainly orgasmed. Then nothing for another 7 years and this was different surrounded by guilt. I had lots of therapy regarding my childhood, and ended up getting pregnant at 18, married at 19 I had a strapping 16 year old son and I was in my late 30s.
His life was different to mine. I married a builder we had money I didn't play around, but I didn't love my husband.
Yes I did love my son and in my mind I thought because he was given his childhood and an appropriate support network around him he was stable enough to have a sexual relationship with his mother.
It happened we had sex and its happened intensely and periodically. He has been married and has now divorced. His father has died. He's financially stable. He's very angry now and during the summer he rpaded out of sheer anger of my seduction of him as a young man.
I feel I need help mentally as I wait in vain for him to be angry with me again and all he has been is apologetic.
I can summarise that his introduction was better than my introduction but I hope he breaks the cycle.
I knew it was wrong but I would be lying to say it wasn't enjoyable at the time and I certainly orgasmed. Then nothing for another 7 years and this was different surrounded by guilt. I had lots of therapy regarding my childhood, and ended up getting pregnant at 18, married at 19 I had a strapping 16 year old son and I was in my late 30s.
His life was different to mine. I married a builder we had money I didn't play around, but I didn't love my husband.
Yes I did love my son and in my mind I thought because he was given his childhood and an appropriate support network around him he was stable enough to have a sexual relationship with his mother.
It happened we had sex and its happened intensely and periodically. He has been married and has now divorced. His father has died. He's financially stable. He's very angry now and during the summer he rpaded out of sheer anger of my seduction of him as a young man.
I feel I need help mentally as I wait in vain for him to be angry with me again and all he has been is apologetic.
I can summarise that his introduction was better than my introduction but I hope he breaks the cycle.
