Didn't Want It But Turned Out This Way

I am a guy, or at least I have a very small cock and balls between my legs. I've had gay sex since my first time about 4 years ago. I didn't want it, I was attracted to girls and sometimes got to sneak a peek up dresses, skirts, too loose shorts etc. My friend, or so I thought, next door was almost 2 years older than me. We were out in his car, in the hot summer and he convinced me to go skinny dipping with him. Laying on a blanket I was on my stomach and he on his back. He was getting hard I noticed. He played with it for a while and I just watched. He told me I needed some sun lotion on, and not waiting for a reply he started rubbing it on me. Just a bit on my back, then on my butt. He lingered with it on my butt, sliding a lot in my crack. He put some on his cock and with my legs together butt up, he straddled me and before I knew it, he was inside me about 3 inches. I told him to stop and he said that he would stop pretty soon, it felt too good. With that his 7 to 8 inches was fully inside me and I was hurting bad. I started to tear up a bit, I convinced him to just stop and let me get used to it.

I clamped down as has as I could, then let go and repeated that a few times. He couldn't stand it, telling me how good I was making him feel. He pumped me about 10 times, then came inside me. He pulled out, slapping my ass telling me how good I felt. He said I was a good piece of ass and not to worry, soon it won't hurt anymore. I just stayed silent, I leaned over on my side, putting my ass away from him. He reached down and got the last globs of his cum on his finger and slid it into my mouth.

I stayed away from him as best I could but within a week, he got me alone again and in my room at home fucked me again. After that, I was resigned. There was no way to keep away from someone who lived that close and was a "friend" for so long. Soon, spending nights at his house I was sucking his cock and getting fucked several times a day. He was insatiable, he could cum at least 4 times in an evening and night. A year later he was off to college, and quite frankly I found another older boy to have sex with. He too fucked me and I sucked his cock. It was he who turned me out as a gay slut to others. By the time I had been fucked by 4 of his friends, I was turned out to an 8 guy gangbang. Most all of the guys were much older, in their 30s and wore wedding rings. After that I knew I was just a sissy, a fag, a gay bottom slut. I have at least settled with 1 guy who is married, and his wife knows about me. He has a really big cock, the biggest I've had and I let him use me as his wife won't. She has a pussy but won't let him cum in her mouth, and won't let him near her ass with his thick cock. He and I even have date nights.

I didn't even think about having gay sex when I first was assaulted, but I was, it was gay sex, and now I'm a gay slut for cocks.