Sub Bottom Alpha Male

I’ve been having sex with a guy for a while. Amazing fat, long cock. Sometimes though I feel like beating him up. Not sure why I feel thhat way. I get upset if his not able to perform. I’m obviously in control of myself and do not do nor say anything about how I’m thinking of beating his ass till my heart is content, I just let him know I got to go. It’s just upsetting that tops don’t think of how much a bottom takes time and care to have a clean hole. I’m a really good bottom and can take a big dick hard and deep and rough, so I’m meticulous with having a clean hole. I don’t know what it is, maybe I’m just too much of a sex addict. I’m a short guy who’s very fit, I am confident I can beat up a big guy with ease, some of these gays that have gotten aggressive have realized wrong on to fuck with... I don’t know maybe I’m getting feeling and it pisses me off to think he’s drained from someone else… the problem with that is I fuck other people without him knowing… very confused of why I feel this way. Last weekend we fucked 9 times in 2 days, and it was so intense it made my cock tingle and feel amazing from getting my ass fucked hard and deep. He makes this sounds as if I just took his soul when he cums, sounds intense. Anyhow yea I’m a bottom and a cock whore yet I’m alpha male and will check these men quick and they know it.